New Letter Challenge.

Something occurred to me last night.

I almost always think that if I ever finally took the plunge- you know, ended it once and for all, that I wouldn't be missed, that no one would care. However, the voice of my friend Matthew, the only person I had left to turn to at that moment, convinced you otherwise.

"Vixen, of course people care about you. I care about you. Your parents care about you." His voice, crackly over the static of my cell phone, comforted me.

I thought about that for a moment. And for a moment, I thought he was right.

Then, lyrics from an old Linkin Park song came racing through my mind.

After my dreaming, I woke with this fear; What am leaving when I'm done here?

I thought about all the people in my life. The wrong I had done. Mistakes that I made. And those few, few happy memories. I wondered, what would/could I say to them if I left? What would my last words to them be?

And so now, I made a decision.

For the next two weeks, I'm doing my own writing challenge: The Suicide Letter series.

Every day, I write a new final statement to someone close to me. Simple enough, right?

The people I will write to will be as follows:

1. Darcy

2. Arien

3. Rachael

4. Hazem

5. Scott

6. Tony

7. Hunter

8. My parents

9. My sister

10. David

11. Nathan

12. Kira

13. Jacob

14. Mat

That will start tomorrow, as I have a physics and a chemistry exam to study for.


Also... i'm switching to tumblr,

-V.