Another Halloween come and gone.... I still feel the horror.
About three kids came to my door, so little candy was given. That shits going to tempt me for days.
Did 160 sit ups... lifted some weights... still not enough. Already decided I'm going to try not to eat tomorrow. I can't let myself go. Not after him. Not after he let me go. I have to stay strong, keep thin- prove him wrong. Prove to myself that I can be beautiful.
Finally saw you-know-who today. Our eyes met on the stairs, and I nervously acknowledged him. I must have looked ridiculous, a silly girl in a goth dress and wizard hat and black lipstick, waving at a handsome senior on the football team. Surprisingly, he gave me a slight acknowledgement.
Maybe I could text him.....
.....Then again, maybe not.
...Jesus, I haven't been this scared of a guy since elementary school.
Scared of what he thinks of me.
"I can't help it baby, this is who I am... I'm sorry but I can't just go turn off how I feel."
Lyrics that really stick with you. Yeah.
This world is fucked up, you know that? All this bullshit just gets in my head.
More poetry ahead. I wish it was better... but I did write in in Starbucks, so cut me some slack. A soppy breakup poem, you'll get the meaning.
The Grimm Brothers Lied
Whatever happened
To the good old thing
Called love?
Whatever happened to
The serenations, the carnations
Delivered to your door, for no reason
Except that it's monday.
Whatever happened
To good old fashioned chivalry?
The knight in a fitted tux,
Ready to sweep you off your feet
(Guess boys are getting weaker every day)
Whatever happened
To you and I?
Didn't you love me
Once upon a time?
I guess my fairytale ending
Was erased from the page-
But you left those words, your once
Sweet words, aching and stabbing
On my heart.
Should've left me in the tower,
I just wish I'd had the sense
To cut my hair.
Goodnight, guys. And Happy Halloween.
-V.
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